The Sun Goes Down…

Ο_Ο

I’m supposed to try to let go of her.

I shouldn’t listen to that kind of songs but….but….

A Greek song.

Δεν περνάει η ώρα πικρό τσιγάρο ανάβω ξανά
Time does not pass, once again I light up a bitter cigarette
Δεν περνάει η ώρα
Time does not pass,
Ακόμα μια νύχτα για σένα θα υποφέρω
I’ll suffer for you one more night
Δε θα ‘ρθεις και το ξέρω
you won’t come, and I know it
Δεν περνάει η ώρα παντού υπάρχεις κι ας μην είσαι εδώ
Time does not pass, even though you’re not here, you’ re everywhere
Δεν περνάει η ώρα
Time does not pass,
Για σένα τα μάτια μου κλείνω και σε θυμάμαι
For you, I close my eyes and I remember you
Δε θα ‘ρθεις και φοβάμαι
You won’t come and I’m scared

Δεν περνάει η ώρα φωτιά στο σώμα μου είσαι ξανά
Time does not pass, you’re a fire in my body again
Δεν περνάει η ώρα
Time does not pass,
Στα φώτα της νύχτας σε χάνω και πού να ψάξω
In the night lights, I’m loosing you and where should i look for
Σ’ αγαπώ να φωνάξω
To cry out loud “I love you”

Όλος ο κόσμος είσαι εσύ
You are the whole world
Τα πάντα είσαι εσύ ολόκληρη η ζωή μου είσαι
You are everything, you’ re my whole life
Όλος ο κόσμος είσαι εσύ
You are the whole world
Το τέλος κι η αρχή
The end and the beginning
Ο κόσμος, ο κόσμος είσαι εσύ
The world, the world is you

Δεν περνάει η ώρα χωρίς εσένα νυχτώνει νωρίς
Time does not pass, night comes early without you
Δεν περνάει η ώρα
Time does not pass,
Στο άδειο μου σπίτι κι απόψε σε περιμένω
In my empty house tonight, I’m waiting for you
Σαν κερί αναμμένο
As a lighted candle
Δεν περνάει η ώρα φωτιά στο σώμα μου είσαι ξανά
Time,doesn’t pass, you’re a fire in my body ,again
Δεν περνάει η ώρα
Time does not pass,
Στα φώτα της νύχτας σε χάνω και πού να ψάξω
In the night lights, I’m loosing you and where should i look for
Σ’ αγαπώ να φωνάξω
To cry out loud “I love you”

Όλος ο κόσμος είσαι εσύ
You are the whole world
Τα πάντα είσαι εσύ ολόκληρη η ζωή μου είσαι
You are everything, you’ re my whole life
Όλος ο κόσμος είσαι εσύ
You are the whole world
Το τέλος κι η αρχή
The end and the beginning
Ο κόσμος, ο κόσμος είσαι εσύ
The world, the world is you

 

Time To Move On And Let Go…

That’s it!

Time to move on and let go!

I must kill my feelings.This situation leads to nowhere.

I have to fall to lose it all and start again from the beginning.

Life Update…

Well…I’M ALIVE…(Obviously)

So…My recent blogs were about me being desperate about my life and “THAT” girl…

This situation continues until today.The only difference is that I have a lot of mood swings.I’m happy,one minute later I’m sad,then happy again and sad again.That’s just TRAGIC.Then there’s “THAT” girl that I have feelings for -.-’

I can’t control my feelings and I hate that.

I tried to let go of her but then we were exchanging glances like 4-5 times a day and I thought what if she feels something for me?I decided to be 100% sure that she doesn’t have feelings for me before I try to let go of her.

One day I thought she may have feelings for me,next day Ι thought she doesn’t..etc….

We talk,laugh,smile but I’m still confused.

One more bad thing is that she may read this blog O_O

I blog anonymously because I don’t want the people I know know this blog.It’s like a quiet,peaceful place for myself.

BUT!!4-5 months ago I sent the link of my blog’s URL to 3-4 of my friends(INCLUDED HER)!!%&#*$*@&)*#

I did that because the only thing I had in my blog then was just some songs and lyrics.

What if she still read my blog???????????????????????

I hope she doesn’t,or if she does,I hope she haven’t understand that the girl I’m talking about is she.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Society Is Anti-Me

Am I antisocial?

No,I’m not antisocial,society is anti-me.

Let’s see how our social environment form opinions about what is right and what is wrong.

Kill someone in a war,get a medal,you are hero.Kill someone in the street,go to prison,you are terrorist.

See?Same actions,different reactions.Why?Because that’s what society have made you believe it’s right and wrong.

Why again?Because war is one of the most profitable activities on this planet.

Also notice that society itself is anti-social.It’s supposed to unite people not divide them.

You are rich,you are successful.You are famous,you are successful.You are poor,you are unsuccessful.You have a serious health problem,you are unsuccessful.You don’t work in an office,you aren’t a doctor,you haven’t finished school,you are unsuccessful.etc……

You want to control society?You need stupid society.

You need stupid society?You need stupid people.

What about youth people?Let’s talk about their habits.

Same meaningless music.Same kind of entertainment(clubs).Same stupid conversations every day about facebook,Myspace,fashion or friend’s relationships.Same DUMB TV shows showing those who some call “idols”,useless,idiot,fake people  that we give them value by watching them.

It’s easier to control a mass of people than a single individual.

Society in our day has set some right and wrong ways of living.If you don’t follow them,you are anti-social.If you follow them you are just another sheep in the herd.

Just some photos..

These are some of my cats.(I have 5)

Sky

A random flower outside our house.(edited)

I drink tea every day so it deserves one photo

Another Failing Day…

Great!I made a decision 2 days ago to stop pretending that funny guy and start being my real self.GUESS WHAT??THINGS BECAME WORSE!!My friends started asking what’s wrong with me,why I’m not happy today etc…and I was like,everything is wrong with me,but I didn’t say that,I said that nothing is wrong with me stop asking.DIDN’T WORK!!Everyone was staring at me,then i tried to start pretending again,I putted on my daily facade again and started pretending again that funny guy,you know smiling,making other laugh but this time it felt like it wasn’t real,to me at least,for example i told them something funny and they laughed but I couldn’t laugh,I couldn’t laugh at all,just smiled for a while,then I left them and I went to School Library to relax for a while.I wasn’t alone,there was a classmate of mine studying there,I was just sitting and staring at the window thinking.after 5 minutes she asked me what’s wrong with me(It’s like the 5th time i heard this question yesterday)I said nothing just relaxing,she told me that she sees I’m not alright,something’s wrong,I told her again nothing’s wrong,I’m a terrible actor sometimes she didn’t believe me but she stopped asking.Next hour in the class I couldn’t stay,my head was spinning with all of my problems,I wanted to go somewhere and SCREAM as loud as I can.5 minutes before the break I found a moment of silence and asked whispering to my teacher to let me go without attracting anyone’s attention,then she shouted “WHERE ARE YOU GOING”and everyone in the class started looking at me,I said that I need to go,she shouted again “WHERE”I ask her if she’s going to let me go or no,she said no wait till the bell rings,I was like GREAT!One more mistake in my account,I wanted to be discreet but that moment everyone was staring at me.When the bell ringed I walked as fast as I could to the door without looking back.One more fail,now everyone is wondering what the hell is happening to me,I had tears in my eyes while  leaving.Congratulations to myself for making things worse and worse every day.

I’m a Failure…

(Written 2 days ago)

I’ve been spending my half day for 9 years in the same room,doing same things.I’ve never had real friends,not even a close one.I envy when see people being together and having a good time.Also,I’ve never had a serious relationship,I’ve felt in love 4-5 times in my life but I’ve never had the courage to explain  my feelings.I’m not even a good student.All of the above make me realize that I’m a failure in life.

At school I’m that funny guy who make others laugh by doing or telling stupid things.I do that because i want to see other people laugh,I want them to have something I never had.They don’t know that behind this smile there’s a desperate person.It’s like I pretend to be someone I’m not.But what’s next?Where is this situation going to lead me to?I can’t stand it anymore,I want to leave.

In addition to this,there’s that girl that i have feelings for,but guess what?I already know what’s going to happen,I won’t tell her my feelings and she will find someone else which will lead me in desperation once again.Story is repeating itself.Perhaps the reason I don’t tell her my feelings is that I love her so much that I know she deserves someone better than me,someone who will make her happy,someone who will give her what I cant.

That’s my fucking reality.